1 00:00:00,709 --> 00:00:02,044 Previously on "Dr. Quinn"... 2 00:00:02,044 --> 00:00:03,629 I believe you have a growth. 3 00:00:03,629 --> 00:00:06,131 A routine exam uncovers a serious illness... 4 00:00:06,131 --> 00:00:07,633 Might be cancer. 5 00:00:07,633 --> 00:00:09,843 ...and a patient's fear leads to denial. 6 00:00:09,843 --> 00:00:13,222 This little lump is gonna go away just like all the others. 7 00:00:13,222 --> 00:00:15,140 Sully, what should I do? 8 00:00:15,140 --> 00:00:16,975 Listen to your gut, and take your stand. 9 00:00:16,975 --> 00:00:18,810 Now, the only solution... 10 00:00:18,810 --> 00:00:20,145 You can't take chances with this. 11 00:00:20,145 --> 00:00:21,605 It's serious. 12 00:00:21,605 --> 00:00:23,607 ...may be too difficult to bear. 13 00:00:23,607 --> 00:00:26,360 We remove the growth along with your breast. 14 00:00:26,360 --> 00:00:29,696 But whatever the price, it's worth it to save your life. 15 00:02:45,040 --> 00:02:46,041 Maybe not. 16 00:02:46,041 --> 00:02:47,125 Yeah, I know. 17 00:02:47,125 --> 00:02:48,710 Look out there, now! 18 00:02:48,710 --> 00:02:50,253 Um, come on, Colleen. Let's go. 19 00:02:50,253 --> 00:02:53,048 - What? - Um, just turn around. 20 00:02:58,053 --> 00:03:00,305 Come on. 21 00:03:00,305 --> 00:03:01,723 Let's go. 22 00:03:06,269 --> 00:03:07,771 Come on. 23 00:03:11,108 --> 00:03:12,984 Sully. 24 00:03:12,984 --> 00:03:14,611 - Good morning, Robert E. - Good morning. 25 00:03:14,611 --> 00:03:16,822 - Morning. - Sully, could I speak to you? 26 00:03:18,990 --> 00:03:20,951 What do you need? 27 00:03:20,951 --> 00:03:23,995 It's more what I don't need. 28 00:03:23,995 --> 00:03:28,333 I don't need any more help or advice from Michaela. 29 00:03:28,333 --> 00:03:31,211 But she's insistent on it. 30 00:03:31,211 --> 00:03:34,548 You know how she can be. 31 00:03:34,548 --> 00:03:35,757 She can be stubborn. 32 00:03:35,757 --> 00:03:37,884 Well, she means well. 33 00:03:37,884 --> 00:03:39,052 But there's some things 34 00:03:39,052 --> 00:03:42,973 folks have to make their own decisions about. 35 00:03:42,973 --> 00:03:45,308 I agree. 36 00:03:45,308 --> 00:03:47,144 Would you talk to her for me? 37 00:03:47,144 --> 00:03:50,981 And let her know that I appreciate the good intentions, 38 00:03:50,981 --> 00:03:55,861 but I'd rather she leave it be. 39 00:03:55,861 --> 00:03:58,697 I'll talk to her for you. 40 00:03:58,697 --> 00:04:01,199 I haven't even told you what it is. 41 00:04:01,199 --> 00:04:03,034 No need to. 42 00:04:07,080 --> 00:04:09,249 What a pair the two of you make. 43 00:04:10,584 --> 00:04:12,961 You'd go to the ends of the Earth to help a person. 44 00:04:12,961 --> 00:04:15,714 And yet, you're so different from her. 45 00:04:17,215 --> 00:04:19,968 You never push or pry. 46 00:04:19,968 --> 00:04:22,471 You never fight your way into someone's trouble. 47 00:04:28,268 --> 00:04:30,854 She tells me I may have cancer. 48 00:04:32,731 --> 00:04:34,566 She says the only way to be sure 49 00:04:34,566 --> 00:04:39,905 is to do an operation that will... 50 00:04:39,905 --> 00:04:44,868 I'll lose -- I'll lose a part of myself. 51 00:04:47,287 --> 00:04:49,372 And I'm not able to accept that. 52 00:04:51,708 --> 00:04:55,212 Can you understand that? 53 00:04:55,212 --> 00:04:56,880 Yeah. Yeah. 54 00:05:01,051 --> 00:05:03,220 Thank you. 55 00:05:24,074 --> 00:05:26,034 Colleen, what are you doing? 56 00:05:26,034 --> 00:05:27,827 I don't want them. 57 00:05:27,827 --> 00:05:29,412 Colleen! 58 00:05:34,626 --> 00:05:36,795 Tell me what happened. 59 00:05:36,795 --> 00:05:41,841 A boy at school he was making fun of me. 60 00:05:41,841 --> 00:05:42,926 I see. 61 00:05:46,221 --> 00:05:53,061 I'm -- I'm bigger than all the other girls in class. 62 00:05:53,061 --> 00:05:55,146 I feel like a freak. 63 00:05:56,898 --> 00:05:59,734 You're just developing. That's all. 64 00:05:59,734 --> 00:06:01,736 Girls grow at -- at different rates. 65 00:06:01,736 --> 00:06:05,115 Oh, but I hate them. 66 00:06:05,115 --> 00:06:07,409 Well... 67 00:06:07,409 --> 00:06:12,080 all girls don't like something about their appearance. 68 00:06:12,080 --> 00:06:13,832 Did you? 69 00:06:13,832 --> 00:06:15,792 My hair. 70 00:06:15,792 --> 00:06:17,419 Your hair? 71 00:06:17,419 --> 00:06:19,754 But it's so beautiful. 72 00:06:19,754 --> 00:06:25,051 Well, I always thought that -- that it was far too straight. 73 00:06:25,051 --> 00:06:26,761 I would've given anything in the world 74 00:06:26,761 --> 00:06:29,180 to have had ringlets like Sadie Turner. 75 00:06:29,180 --> 00:06:31,683 She was so popular. 76 00:06:31,683 --> 00:06:33,852 Every night, I used to wet my hair 77 00:06:33,852 --> 00:06:35,812 and wrap it around those little thread spools 78 00:06:35,812 --> 00:06:37,856 that I found in my mother's sewing kit. 79 00:06:37,856 --> 00:06:40,066 And I'd sleep like that. 80 00:06:40,066 --> 00:06:42,944 I'd wake up in the morning and go to breakfast. 81 00:06:42,944 --> 00:06:46,031 And Margie would say, "Apparently, 82 00:06:46,031 --> 00:06:47,407 a rat's made a nest in your hair." 83 00:06:48,950 --> 00:06:50,869 But at least you had curls. 84 00:06:50,869 --> 00:06:52,787 Only for about an hour. 85 00:06:52,787 --> 00:06:53,913 By the time I got to school, 86 00:06:53,913 --> 00:06:56,750 it was as straight as a pin again. 87 00:06:56,750 --> 00:06:59,461 I can't imagine you with curly hair. 88 00:06:59,461 --> 00:07:04,132 And I can't imagine you being different from the way you are. 89 00:07:04,132 --> 00:07:06,301 You may feel that you're developing too quickly now, 90 00:07:06,301 --> 00:07:09,971 but girls mature faster than boys. 91 00:07:09,971 --> 00:07:11,514 Not other girls. 92 00:07:11,514 --> 00:07:14,476 It feels like I'm the only one. 93 00:07:14,476 --> 00:07:17,979 Well, those girls will catch up with you and -- 94 00:07:17,979 --> 00:07:19,439 and you'll catch up with yourself. 95 00:07:19,439 --> 00:07:23,777 And somehow it'll all even out. 96 00:07:23,777 --> 00:07:27,238 But the boys... 97 00:07:27,238 --> 00:07:30,241 They don't even look in my eyes anymore. 98 00:07:30,241 --> 00:07:33,161 They look one place. 99 00:07:33,161 --> 00:07:35,413 They don't see me. 100 00:07:35,413 --> 00:07:37,040 They don't see who I am. 101 00:07:40,126 --> 00:07:43,004 Well... 102 00:07:43,004 --> 00:07:47,258 Well, boys go through a stage where -- 103 00:07:47,258 --> 00:07:48,802 well, where they're fascinated 104 00:07:48,802 --> 00:07:51,388 by certain things about a young lady. 105 00:07:51,388 --> 00:07:54,307 Do they ever get back to liking all of you? 106 00:07:54,307 --> 00:07:56,434 Most of them. 107 00:07:56,434 --> 00:08:00,146 But it's up to you to let them see you as a whole person, 108 00:08:00,146 --> 00:08:02,148 as a mind and as a spirit. 109 00:08:03,566 --> 00:08:04,818 I thought that new boy, Jared, 110 00:08:04,818 --> 00:08:07,570 was interested in my mind. 111 00:08:07,570 --> 00:08:09,197 But I sure was wrong. 112 00:08:12,450 --> 00:08:15,954 Did -- did he do something inappropriate? 113 00:08:17,455 --> 00:08:19,082 He tried. 114 00:08:19,082 --> 00:08:21,584 - Colleen! - Don't worry. I stopped him. 115 00:08:21,584 --> 00:08:25,296 Well, that's not the point. 116 00:08:25,296 --> 00:08:28,007 Well, I, uh, I'm gonna talk to the reverend and -- 117 00:08:28,007 --> 00:08:29,175 and to the boy's mother and... 118 00:08:29,175 --> 00:08:30,468 No, please. 119 00:08:30,468 --> 00:08:31,886 Colleen, we can't just leave this. 120 00:08:31,886 --> 00:08:33,430 Please, you'll only make it worse. 121 00:08:33,430 --> 00:08:34,931 Well, something's got to be done. 122 00:08:36,015 --> 00:08:37,934 Then let me do it. 123 00:09:07,172 --> 00:09:09,549 Well, well, well. 124 00:09:09,549 --> 00:09:11,593 Rise and shine. 125 00:09:13,511 --> 00:09:16,306 You wasn't trying to get away from us, was you? 126 00:09:19,100 --> 00:09:20,643 Good. 127 00:09:23,313 --> 00:09:27,025 'Cause I -- 128 00:09:27,025 --> 00:09:32,155 I brung you a little present from my ride into Manitou. 129 00:09:35,325 --> 00:09:36,576 See there? 130 00:09:36,576 --> 00:09:38,119 A bottle. 131 00:09:38,119 --> 00:09:41,206 It's -- it's very nice. 132 00:09:41,206 --> 00:09:43,291 Well, it ain't just a bottle. 133 00:09:43,291 --> 00:09:44,626 It's lilac water. 134 00:09:47,212 --> 00:09:49,380 I know it can get kind of rough out here on the trail. 135 00:09:49,380 --> 00:09:52,884 And I figured you been finding it kind of hard 136 00:09:52,884 --> 00:09:56,513 to feel, well, feminine. 137 00:09:59,891 --> 00:10:07,941 So I thought maybe a little dash 'hind your ear 138 00:10:07,941 --> 00:10:09,692 might perk you up a little bit. 139 00:10:16,032 --> 00:10:17,575 Mmm. 140 00:10:17,575 --> 00:10:19,452 Much better. 141 00:10:19,452 --> 00:10:22,330 Thank you. 142 00:10:22,330 --> 00:10:24,666 Come on over here and take a whiff, little brother. 143 00:10:27,293 --> 00:10:28,586 Mmm. 144 00:10:30,672 --> 00:10:32,173 'Hind her ear. Take a whiff. 145 00:10:40,056 --> 00:10:41,057 Smells real nice. 146 00:10:41,057 --> 00:10:42,559 Don't it, though? 147 00:10:42,559 --> 00:10:45,520 You know, I didn't want to say nothing. 148 00:10:45,520 --> 00:10:49,607 But you was getting a little ripe there. 149 00:10:49,607 --> 00:10:52,235 And I believe you was right for once. 150 00:10:52,235 --> 00:10:54,779 It was a good idea keeping her with us. 151 00:10:54,779 --> 00:10:58,533 Fact, I believe she might come in handy. 152 00:10:58,533 --> 00:11:01,744 - What for? - Well, cooking, for one. 153 00:11:01,744 --> 00:11:07,250 I got me a hankering for some bacon and biscuits. 154 00:11:07,250 --> 00:11:08,585 Yes, sir. 155 00:11:16,718 --> 00:11:21,139 You think you could fry us up some breakfast? 156 00:11:21,139 --> 00:11:24,392 I --I could try. 157 00:11:26,352 --> 00:11:28,646 What do you mean, you could try? 158 00:11:28,646 --> 00:11:33,526 I...d-don't really cook. 159 00:11:38,364 --> 00:11:40,283 You don't cook? 160 00:11:40,283 --> 00:11:41,951 Now, what kind of woman don't cook? 161 00:11:43,786 --> 00:11:47,290 Carl, I --I'll fry us up some of that bacon. 162 00:11:56,424 --> 00:11:58,051 Well, all right. 163 00:12:00,803 --> 00:12:02,096 I been meaning to show you. 164 00:12:04,432 --> 00:12:07,185 I got this nasty rip in my pants. 165 00:12:07,185 --> 00:12:10,146 Maybe you could sew it for me. 166 00:12:10,146 --> 00:12:13,358 I, uh, don't sew. 167 00:12:16,861 --> 00:12:18,738 You can't cook. 168 00:12:18,738 --> 00:12:20,865 You can't sew. 169 00:12:20,865 --> 00:12:23,284 No wonder you ain't got a husband. 170 00:12:23,284 --> 00:12:25,286 Hell, woman, what can you do? 171 00:12:30,917 --> 00:12:32,710 I can cut hair. 172 00:12:49,394 --> 00:12:51,896 You didn't tell me it was Dorothy. 173 00:12:51,896 --> 00:12:53,731 How did you find out? 174 00:12:53,731 --> 00:12:55,817 She told me. 175 00:12:55,817 --> 00:12:57,110 Would that have made a difference to you 176 00:12:57,110 --> 00:12:58,778 in your advice to me? 177 00:12:58,778 --> 00:13:02,490 Yes. Dorothy is your friend. 178 00:13:02,490 --> 00:13:05,451 So I shouldn't recommend an operation 179 00:13:05,451 --> 00:13:08,204 because I know the person? 180 00:13:08,204 --> 00:13:10,373 You told me to take a stand, and I did. 181 00:13:10,373 --> 00:13:12,667 You take a stand. You give her a choice. 182 00:13:12,667 --> 00:13:15,545 And after she chooses, then you stop being the doctor. 183 00:13:15,545 --> 00:13:17,797 She's very possibly choosing death, Sully. 184 00:13:17,797 --> 00:13:20,508 - Do you understand that? - It's still her choice. 185 00:13:20,508 --> 00:13:22,343 Do you think this is easy for me? 186 00:13:22,343 --> 00:13:23,761 Do you think I want to talk to my best friend 187 00:13:23,761 --> 00:13:26,431 like she's a stranger? 188 00:13:26,431 --> 00:13:28,641 I would love to tell her that everything's gonna be all right. 189 00:13:28,641 --> 00:13:31,477 But I can't afford that luxury. 190 00:13:31,477 --> 00:13:33,187 Someone has got to give her the bad news. 191 00:13:33,187 --> 00:13:35,273 Someone has got to fight this thing with her. 192 00:13:35,273 --> 00:13:37,150 Dorothy doesn't want to fight. 193 00:13:37,150 --> 00:13:39,193 She's made peace with it. 194 00:13:39,193 --> 00:13:41,654 Well, I don't want her to make peace with it. 195 00:13:41,654 --> 00:13:43,364 I want her to live. 196 00:13:55,918 --> 00:13:58,755 Dorothy, have you thought about our conversation? 197 00:13:58,755 --> 00:14:01,299 I have. 198 00:14:01,299 --> 00:14:02,717 My answer is no. 199 00:14:04,635 --> 00:14:08,347 Then there's a good chance you may die. 200 00:14:08,347 --> 00:14:11,392 If my time comes, then I'm ready. 201 00:14:11,392 --> 00:14:12,852 I'm not afraid. 202 00:14:12,852 --> 00:14:14,520 My answer's no. 203 00:14:14,520 --> 00:14:17,148 - I can't accept that. - Michaela, I said no. 204 00:14:41,339 --> 00:14:42,632 Dorothy? 205 00:14:44,467 --> 00:14:46,302 Dorothy? 206 00:14:49,305 --> 00:14:50,515 Dorothy? 207 00:14:53,142 --> 00:14:54,227 Loren. 208 00:14:56,145 --> 00:14:58,356 It's the middle of the night. 209 00:14:58,356 --> 00:15:00,817 I've made a decision, Dorothy. 210 00:15:03,986 --> 00:15:07,365 I'm putting the store up for sale. 211 00:15:07,365 --> 00:15:08,991 What? 212 00:15:08,991 --> 00:15:10,993 First thing in the morning, 213 00:15:10,993 --> 00:15:13,204 I'm gonna wire that fellow from the railroad 214 00:15:13,204 --> 00:15:15,164 that wanted it before. 215 00:15:15,164 --> 00:15:17,375 And I'm taking his best offer. 216 00:15:17,375 --> 00:15:20,670 What made you decide such a thing? 217 00:15:20,670 --> 00:15:23,965 I want to take you away. 218 00:15:23,965 --> 00:15:26,050 I want to take that money 219 00:15:26,050 --> 00:15:29,679 and get on a train, just you and me, 220 00:15:29,679 --> 00:15:33,432 and ride it all the way to New York City. 221 00:15:33,432 --> 00:15:36,227 I want to bring you in to one of them fancy stores 222 00:15:36,227 --> 00:15:41,274 you always read about in them magazines of yours, 223 00:15:41,274 --> 00:15:45,486 buy you the prettiest, most expensive dress they got, 224 00:15:45,486 --> 00:15:51,159 some of them high heel shoes, and a hat to match. 225 00:15:51,159 --> 00:15:53,327 I want to get in a carriage 226 00:15:53,327 --> 00:15:55,329 and let it bring us right to the doorstep 227 00:15:55,329 --> 00:15:57,331 of the New York Times 228 00:15:57,331 --> 00:15:59,917 so you can see the biggest newspaper in the world. 229 00:16:01,919 --> 00:16:03,629 Oh, Loren. 230 00:16:03,629 --> 00:16:05,673 Now, don't you dare argue with me. 231 00:16:05,673 --> 00:16:08,301 I wish I could go. 232 00:16:08,301 --> 00:16:10,386 But I can't. 233 00:16:10,386 --> 00:16:12,013 Please. 234 00:16:12,013 --> 00:16:14,265 It don't have to be New York. 235 00:16:14,265 --> 00:16:15,516 You just tell me what you want. 236 00:16:15,516 --> 00:16:17,643 Anything. 237 00:16:17,643 --> 00:16:20,980 I can't go on living 238 00:16:20,980 --> 00:16:23,191 like I only got a little bit of time left. 239 00:16:26,235 --> 00:16:31,199 I got to live like I got all the time in the world. 240 00:16:31,199 --> 00:16:34,452 I don't want to do anything special. 241 00:16:34,452 --> 00:16:38,039 I just want to do the things I always do. 242 00:16:40,708 --> 00:16:43,753 Just let whatever comes, come. 243 00:16:45,671 --> 00:16:48,674 It's the only way I know how to do this. 244 00:16:57,308 --> 00:17:00,061 Now, you go on back to bed and get some sleep. 245 00:17:39,517 --> 00:17:41,394 I thought you might be a bit thirsty. 246 00:18:03,582 --> 00:18:06,627 I want to apologize for my brother. 247 00:18:06,627 --> 00:18:08,379 I hope he didn't scare you none. 248 00:18:10,756 --> 00:18:12,967 He ain't such a bad fella. 249 00:18:15,052 --> 00:18:16,846 Hell, at least he didn't used to be. 250 00:18:18,306 --> 00:18:21,309 See, all this just started out for fun. 251 00:18:21,309 --> 00:18:22,643 We did a few little jobs. 252 00:18:22,643 --> 00:18:25,563 We made some easy money. 253 00:18:25,563 --> 00:18:28,691 And I just went along with it 'cause he's my big brother. 254 00:18:28,691 --> 00:18:31,444 He's always smarter than me. 255 00:18:31,444 --> 00:18:34,572 I figured he knew what he was doing. 256 00:18:34,572 --> 00:18:36,741 But then he started wanting to rob more and more 257 00:18:36,741 --> 00:18:39,577 and taking big chances. 258 00:18:39,577 --> 00:18:41,245 Now he's talking about killing folk. 259 00:18:44,540 --> 00:18:47,376 I don't want to kill nobody. 260 00:18:47,376 --> 00:18:49,337 He keeps saying we got to stick together 261 00:18:49,337 --> 00:18:51,630 'cause we're the only family we got. 262 00:18:51,630 --> 00:18:56,260 But if he starts killing, I can't stick with him. 263 00:19:03,601 --> 00:19:06,395 Today might be raining. 264 00:19:06,395 --> 00:19:10,358 But tomorrow, the sun's gonna shine. 265 00:19:29,710 --> 00:19:31,295 You go on. You get out of here. 266 00:19:31,295 --> 00:19:33,631 Go on. 267 00:19:33,631 --> 00:19:34,757 Go on. You're a nice lady. 268 00:19:34,757 --> 00:19:36,842 I don't want nothing bad to happen to you. 269 00:19:36,842 --> 00:19:38,803 Now go on. 270 00:20:24,432 --> 00:20:25,558 You going home 271 00:20:25,558 --> 00:20:27,309 or planning on spending the night here? 272 00:20:30,229 --> 00:20:32,273 I don't know what I'm doing. 273 00:20:35,443 --> 00:20:38,529 I sit here, surrounded by my books, 274 00:20:38,529 --> 00:20:42,324 medicines, instruments... 275 00:20:42,324 --> 00:20:45,703 all the things that matter to me, 276 00:20:45,703 --> 00:20:47,329 everything that I am. 277 00:20:50,791 --> 00:20:53,210 Sometimes I just -- 278 00:20:53,210 --> 00:20:55,171 I just want to walk away from it all. 279 00:20:59,842 --> 00:21:01,886 You're right, Sully. 280 00:21:04,597 --> 00:21:08,517 I just want to be Michaela, Dorothy's friend. 281 00:21:11,437 --> 00:21:15,024 I want to cry with her and... 282 00:21:15,024 --> 00:21:18,360 tell her how terrible this is. 283 00:21:18,360 --> 00:21:20,529 I want to hold her hand, 284 00:21:20,529 --> 00:21:25,618 and I -- and I want to help her through this. 285 00:21:25,618 --> 00:21:27,161 You can still do that. 286 00:21:29,038 --> 00:21:31,040 No, I cant. I've got to stay here. 287 00:21:31,040 --> 00:21:33,459 I've got to find an answer. 288 00:21:37,796 --> 00:21:39,840 Michaela. 289 00:22:06,492 --> 00:22:10,538 Dorothy, you coming to the Sunday picnic? 290 00:22:10,538 --> 00:22:14,708 No -- no, I think I'll just stay here and do some writing. 291 00:22:14,708 --> 00:22:16,085 Go on without me. 292 00:22:17,461 --> 00:22:18,879 You'll be missed. 293 00:23:04,883 --> 00:23:06,135 Hoo-hoo! 294 00:23:10,764 --> 00:23:12,891 Where you going? 295 00:23:12,891 --> 00:23:14,393 Be right back. 296 00:23:20,441 --> 00:23:22,067 I want to talk to you. 297 00:23:22,067 --> 00:23:23,569 'Bout what? 298 00:23:23,569 --> 00:23:25,112 Come on. 299 00:23:28,490 --> 00:23:30,909 What do you want? 300 00:23:30,909 --> 00:23:33,537 I want you to look at me. 301 00:23:33,537 --> 00:23:34,955 What? 302 00:23:34,955 --> 00:23:37,374 Look at me. 303 00:23:38,375 --> 00:23:39,960 Look at me. 304 00:23:39,960 --> 00:23:42,880 What's the matter with you? Are you crazy? 305 00:23:42,880 --> 00:23:45,007 I'm not crazy. 306 00:23:45,007 --> 00:23:49,470 I'm smart and nice and funny. 307 00:23:49,470 --> 00:23:53,432 And I love school and learning. 308 00:23:53,432 --> 00:23:57,353 And I have two great brothers and the best Ma around. 309 00:23:59,647 --> 00:24:03,609 And I dream about being a doctor someday. 310 00:24:05,903 --> 00:24:08,530 But you'll never know all that. 311 00:24:08,530 --> 00:24:12,076 Not the way you're going. 312 00:24:12,076 --> 00:24:14,912 And that's all right 313 00:24:14,912 --> 00:24:19,083 'cause if you don't care about those things... 314 00:24:19,083 --> 00:24:20,668 then I can do without you. 315 00:24:22,878 --> 00:24:26,465 Only, it makes me sad 316 00:24:26,465 --> 00:24:28,759 'cause I thought you were nice. 317 00:24:29,927 --> 00:24:31,387 I liked you. 318 00:24:33,472 --> 00:24:35,224 I wanted to be friends. 319 00:24:40,938 --> 00:24:42,106 Wait. 320 00:24:49,697 --> 00:24:51,073 I do want to be friends. 321 00:24:54,118 --> 00:24:55,744 Maybe when you grow up. 322 00:24:58,163 --> 00:24:59,957 Please? 323 00:25:07,047 --> 00:25:08,674 Then we got to start over. 324 00:25:13,095 --> 00:25:15,639 Colleen Cooper. 325 00:25:15,639 --> 00:25:17,224 Jared McAllister. 326 00:26:17,868 --> 00:26:19,495 Bring that cousin. 327 00:26:24,041 --> 00:26:25,834 Good morning, Dorothy. 328 00:26:25,834 --> 00:26:28,712 Glad you could join us this fine day. 329 00:26:28,712 --> 00:26:30,923 Ain't that sky just beautiful? 330 00:26:30,923 --> 00:26:32,216 Yes. 331 00:26:32,216 --> 00:26:33,801 It is beautiful. 332 00:26:37,846 --> 00:26:39,056 Dorothy? 333 00:26:39,056 --> 00:26:40,933 Dorothy. 334 00:26:40,933 --> 00:26:42,810 You got to try some of my cider. 335 00:26:42,810 --> 00:26:44,645 I never had apples so sweet. 336 00:26:44,645 --> 00:26:46,355 Here, taste. 337 00:26:49,942 --> 00:26:52,528 Isn't that the best cider you ever had in your life? 338 00:26:54,279 --> 00:26:57,199 I believe it is, Grace. 339 00:26:58,575 --> 00:27:01,620 Looking mighty nice today, Miss Dorothy. 340 00:27:01,620 --> 00:27:06,583 And your red hair's shining real pretty in the sun. 341 00:27:06,583 --> 00:27:08,126 Thank you, Robert E. 342 00:27:17,010 --> 00:27:21,056 Hey, Miss Dorothy, look what I found. 343 00:27:21,056 --> 00:27:23,600 Acorns. 344 00:27:23,600 --> 00:27:25,060 Sully says if I plant one, 345 00:27:25,060 --> 00:27:27,062 it'll grow to be as big as that oak. 346 00:27:27,062 --> 00:27:30,274 Oh, none of us will live to see it get that big, Brian. 347 00:27:30,274 --> 00:27:32,609 That oak's 100 years old. 348 00:27:33,777 --> 00:27:34,945 Oh. 349 00:27:40,200 --> 00:27:43,245 Miss Dorothy says there's no use in planting it. 350 00:27:43,245 --> 00:27:45,873 She says none of us will get to see it grow that big. 351 00:27:52,212 --> 00:27:54,631 Oh, but Brian, you must plant it 352 00:27:54,631 --> 00:27:56,258 because by next year, it'll -- 353 00:27:56,258 --> 00:27:58,302 it'll have grown up to your knees and -- 354 00:27:58,302 --> 00:28:01,805 and a year after that, it'll be taller than you. 355 00:28:01,805 --> 00:28:03,056 And then when it's time to go courting, 356 00:28:03,056 --> 00:28:06,768 you can take your young lady for a picnic under it. 357 00:28:06,768 --> 00:28:08,854 And then, when you have children, they can -- 358 00:28:08,854 --> 00:28:11,982 they can build a treehouse in it. 359 00:28:11,982 --> 00:28:14,318 And then someday, you can tell your grandchildren 360 00:28:14,318 --> 00:28:16,945 how you planted it. 361 00:28:16,945 --> 00:28:20,407 And when that tree gets to be 100, 362 00:28:20,407 --> 00:28:24,286 it doesn't matter that you're not here to see it. 363 00:28:24,286 --> 00:28:25,913 All that matters is today. 364 00:28:28,290 --> 00:28:31,251 Today you held 100 years in your hand. 365 00:28:38,759 --> 00:28:42,679 Sully, will you help me? 366 00:28:42,679 --> 00:28:44,806 - You got something to dig with? - This stick. 367 00:28:44,806 --> 00:28:46,058 You got a spot picked out? 368 00:28:46,058 --> 00:28:47,851 I thought maybe over by the creek. 369 00:28:52,272 --> 00:28:57,069 Dorothy, I have to tell you something. 370 00:28:58,362 --> 00:29:02,157 I want you to know that I'm your friend first. 371 00:29:02,157 --> 00:29:04,409 And whatever your decision is, I'll respect it. 372 00:29:07,329 --> 00:29:09,164 I was only pushing you because... 373 00:29:11,792 --> 00:29:15,212 Well, perhaps it's selfish of me, but... 374 00:29:18,215 --> 00:29:20,300 I love you, Dorothy, and I just -- 375 00:29:20,300 --> 00:29:22,386 I don't want to lose you. 376 00:29:26,348 --> 00:29:31,269 Michaela, does time figure into this operation? 377 00:29:31,269 --> 00:29:33,397 There's reason to believe that every minute counts. 378 00:29:35,148 --> 00:29:37,275 Then let's do it now. 379 00:29:37,275 --> 00:29:39,027 - Now? - Yes. 380 00:29:40,862 --> 00:29:42,280 Now. 381 00:30:26,783 --> 00:30:29,119 I'm worried about Miss Dorothy. 382 00:30:29,119 --> 00:30:34,124 Oh, Brian, she's gonna be just fine. 383 00:30:34,124 --> 00:30:37,127 Ma said she was really scared of the operation. 384 00:30:37,127 --> 00:30:40,213 I don't know. I don't think it's the operation. 385 00:30:40,213 --> 00:30:42,966 I think, uh, she trusts Dr. Mike. 386 00:30:42,966 --> 00:30:45,927 Then what is it? 387 00:30:45,927 --> 00:30:51,016 I think she's afraid she won't be pretty anymore. 388 00:30:51,016 --> 00:30:52,309 I think she's the prettiest lady in town 389 00:30:52,309 --> 00:30:53,685 next to Ma. 390 00:30:55,812 --> 00:30:57,272 You be sure you tell her that. 391 00:31:23,131 --> 00:31:25,050 Loren. 392 00:31:25,050 --> 00:31:27,928 I love that woman. 393 00:31:27,928 --> 00:31:30,847 Always have. 394 00:31:30,847 --> 00:31:35,310 I'd always find her as beautiful as... 395 00:31:35,310 --> 00:31:37,771 the first day I saw her. 396 00:31:37,771 --> 00:31:40,774 She needs to know that. 397 00:31:40,774 --> 00:31:44,611 She will. She'll see it in your eyes. 398 00:31:52,285 --> 00:31:53,537 Loren? 399 00:31:55,872 --> 00:31:57,582 If you would like to come sit with her... 400 00:32:19,146 --> 00:32:20,897 Ma'am. 401 00:32:38,081 --> 00:32:40,417 Thank you for being here today, Colleen. 402 00:32:44,796 --> 00:32:47,549 It was difficult, what I had to do. 403 00:32:50,093 --> 00:32:52,012 And it helped me to have you by my side. 404 00:32:56,057 --> 00:32:59,311 I know it must have been very difficult for you, too. 405 00:32:59,311 --> 00:33:02,105 It ain't that. 406 00:33:02,105 --> 00:33:05,775 It's just that I feel so selfish. 407 00:33:05,775 --> 00:33:08,236 Here I've been going on all week about my problem, 408 00:33:08,236 --> 00:33:12,324 and look what Miss Dorothy had to go through. 409 00:33:12,324 --> 00:33:15,911 You don't have to compare yourself to Dorothy. 410 00:33:15,911 --> 00:33:18,872 You don't have to compare yourself to anyone. 411 00:33:18,872 --> 00:33:22,042 You feel what you feel, and -- 412 00:33:22,042 --> 00:33:24,544 and that's never wrong or insignificant. 413 00:33:24,544 --> 00:33:26,922 I can't help it. 414 00:33:26,922 --> 00:33:29,424 I just wish I could do something for her. 415 00:33:29,424 --> 00:33:32,427 Well, you can. 416 00:33:32,427 --> 00:33:34,596 Just be there. 417 00:33:34,596 --> 00:33:36,514 It means more than anything. 418 00:33:48,443 --> 00:33:49,569 Mm. 419 00:33:54,241 --> 00:33:56,076 Mm. 420 00:34:00,830 --> 00:34:02,874 Oh. 421 00:34:02,874 --> 00:34:04,876 Loren. 422 00:34:06,002 --> 00:34:08,505 I'm here. 423 00:34:11,299 --> 00:34:12,968 Oh. 424 00:34:21,518 --> 00:34:23,478 - Jake. - What's going on? 425 00:34:23,478 --> 00:34:25,605 Miss Dorothy had an operation. 426 00:34:25,605 --> 00:34:26,898 What kind of operation? 427 00:34:26,898 --> 00:34:28,108 Some kind of tumor. 428 00:34:28,108 --> 00:34:29,651 Dr. Mike had to take it out. 429 00:34:39,327 --> 00:34:40,996 Dorothy. 430 00:34:40,996 --> 00:34:43,873 She's resting, Jake. 431 00:34:43,873 --> 00:34:45,500 Don't mind. 432 00:35:04,894 --> 00:35:07,105 I -- I didn't know. 433 00:35:09,065 --> 00:35:10,567 I didn't know you had an operation. 434 00:35:10,567 --> 00:35:13,653 How could you? 435 00:35:13,653 --> 00:35:15,613 You weren't anywhere around. 436 00:35:18,992 --> 00:35:21,077 I know what you must be thinking. 437 00:35:21,077 --> 00:35:24,456 That you've been passed out drunk somewhere? 438 00:35:24,456 --> 00:35:27,125 Why would I think that? 439 00:35:27,125 --> 00:35:29,461 Just 'cause the whole town does? 440 00:35:33,298 --> 00:35:37,052 I guess they got a right to. I did it before. 441 00:35:37,052 --> 00:35:38,803 Not to me. 442 00:35:46,519 --> 00:35:48,104 I didn't do it to you, Dorothy. 443 00:35:50,649 --> 00:35:52,275 If that's what the whole town thinks, let them think it. 444 00:35:52,275 --> 00:35:53,777 I want you to know the truth. 445 00:35:57,322 --> 00:36:00,200 I was -- 446 00:36:00,200 --> 00:36:02,077 I was kidnapped by outlaws. 447 00:36:08,375 --> 00:36:13,213 Well, at least that's original. 448 00:36:13,213 --> 00:36:14,506 No, no, no, no. 449 00:36:14,506 --> 00:36:16,132 I really was. 450 00:36:16,132 --> 00:36:18,093 By those fellows that robbed the saloon. 451 00:36:18,093 --> 00:36:19,094 I know it sounds crazy. 452 00:36:19,094 --> 00:36:22,389 You don't have to believe me. 453 00:36:22,389 --> 00:36:27,560 But I come here to tell you... 454 00:36:27,560 --> 00:36:31,314 I'm sorry, Dorothy. 455 00:36:31,314 --> 00:36:34,150 I'm sorry I wasn't around when you needed me. 456 00:36:36,194 --> 00:36:38,571 Do you know what happened to me? 457 00:36:40,949 --> 00:36:45,412 Just...you had a tumor 458 00:36:45,412 --> 00:36:47,580 and -- and Dr. Mike had to take it out. 459 00:36:52,377 --> 00:36:54,879 The tumor was in my breast. 460 00:36:58,091 --> 00:37:00,093 It couldn't be saved. 461 00:37:03,179 --> 00:37:05,014 Dorothy... 462 00:37:11,604 --> 00:37:14,149 Does that make you feel different about me, Jake? 463 00:37:14,149 --> 00:37:15,817 Of course not. 464 00:37:19,737 --> 00:37:21,281 You're gonna look just fine. 465 00:37:28,079 --> 00:37:31,666 I told Michaela I wasn't afraid to die. 466 00:37:31,666 --> 00:37:33,668 But I was. 467 00:37:36,087 --> 00:37:38,173 I am. 468 00:37:38,173 --> 00:37:39,883 I'm so afraid. 469 00:37:48,558 --> 00:37:51,728 Today might be raining. 470 00:37:51,728 --> 00:37:55,815 But tomorrow, the sun's gonna shine. 471 00:38:10,538 --> 00:38:13,291 Jake! 472 00:38:13,291 --> 00:38:16,377 Where the hell you been the last three days? 473 00:38:16,377 --> 00:38:18,213 You wouldn't believe me if I told you. 474 00:38:21,174 --> 00:38:22,675 It's terrible what happened to Dorothy. 475 00:38:22,675 --> 00:38:26,596 Well, she's alive. 476 00:38:26,596 --> 00:38:27,722 That's all that matters. 477 00:38:27,722 --> 00:38:30,850 She's not...herself. 478 00:38:30,850 --> 00:38:33,770 She's, you know... 479 00:38:33,770 --> 00:38:35,897 No, I don't know. 480 00:38:35,897 --> 00:38:37,690 She's... 481 00:38:40,777 --> 00:38:42,654 She ain't normal no more. 482 00:38:44,280 --> 00:38:47,075 Come on, Loren. Don't tell me you don't think about it. 483 00:38:48,701 --> 00:38:51,579 It's just gonna take some getting used to. 484 00:38:51,579 --> 00:38:54,332 Well, I don't know if I can ever get used to it. 485 00:38:54,332 --> 00:38:56,084 I keep thinking about it. 486 00:38:57,210 --> 00:38:58,878 You didn't say that to her? 487 00:38:58,878 --> 00:39:00,839 Of course I didn't. 488 00:39:00,839 --> 00:39:02,173 What did you say? 489 00:39:02,173 --> 00:39:03,716 I told her she'd look just fine. 490 00:39:06,511 --> 00:39:09,514 Then you're a liar. 491 00:39:09,514 --> 00:39:11,349 I wanted to spare her. 492 00:39:11,349 --> 00:39:13,393 You wanted to spare yourself. 493 00:39:13,393 --> 00:39:14,310 Was I supposed to hurt her feelings? 494 00:39:14,310 --> 00:39:15,520 I mean, what should I have said? 495 00:39:15,520 --> 00:39:17,772 Eh, it don't even matter what you said. 496 00:39:17,772 --> 00:39:21,734 It's that you didn't mean it. 497 00:39:21,734 --> 00:39:24,195 You ought to let her be. 498 00:39:24,195 --> 00:39:25,655 You ought to quit courting her. 499 00:39:25,655 --> 00:39:27,740 Well, maybe I ain't ready to quit courting her. 500 00:39:29,826 --> 00:39:32,120 She needs to know she can't count on you. 501 00:39:35,415 --> 00:39:36,416 I want her to be able to count on me. 502 00:39:36,416 --> 00:39:37,750 I just... 503 00:39:37,750 --> 00:39:40,253 Want ain't good enough. 504 00:39:40,253 --> 00:39:41,629 She deserves better. 505 00:39:41,629 --> 00:39:43,256 Fine. 506 00:39:43,256 --> 00:39:45,341 You go tell her. 507 00:39:45,341 --> 00:39:47,302 Go on, Loren. Tell her what a phony I am. 508 00:39:47,302 --> 00:39:48,553 Then you can have her all to yourself. 509 00:39:50,805 --> 00:39:52,390 Maybe I will. 510 00:40:22,420 --> 00:40:24,380 Dorothy. 511 00:40:26,424 --> 00:40:29,260 Did you -- did you see Jake downstairs? 512 00:40:29,260 --> 00:40:31,262 Yes, I did. 513 00:40:31,262 --> 00:40:32,597 What'd he say? 514 00:40:34,349 --> 00:40:35,933 Did he say anything? 515 00:40:37,143 --> 00:40:39,729 He said... 516 00:40:39,729 --> 00:40:44,317 He said...you look beautiful. 517 00:40:46,527 --> 00:40:49,530 - Did he really say that? - Oh, yes. 518 00:40:49,530 --> 00:40:52,075 That's what he said. 519 00:41:08,424 --> 00:41:10,343 - Hey, barber. - I'm closed. 520 00:41:10,343 --> 00:41:12,178 Oh, that's all right. 521 00:41:12,178 --> 00:41:15,723 I -- I'm looking for someone, a woman. 522 00:41:15,723 --> 00:41:18,726 Her name is Jane. 523 00:41:18,726 --> 00:41:22,188 She's kind of tall. 524 00:41:22,188 --> 00:41:25,233 Curly, little ringlets. 525 00:41:25,233 --> 00:41:28,903 Mmm. And smells like lilacs. 526 00:41:28,903 --> 00:41:30,697 I don't know any Janes. 527 00:41:30,697 --> 00:41:33,616 Hmm. 528 00:41:33,616 --> 00:41:35,743 Well, somebody will. 529 00:41:35,743 --> 00:41:37,620 I'll find her. 530 00:41:37,620 --> 00:41:39,122 Sorry to trouble you. 531 00:41:42,250 --> 00:41:44,127 You look familiar. 532 00:41:44,127 --> 00:41:46,212 I don't know you, Mister. 533 00:41:46,212 --> 00:41:47,755 No, you definitely look familiar. 534 00:41:50,633 --> 00:41:52,593 That's funny, 535 00:41:52,593 --> 00:41:56,389 'cause I was just thinking he looked familiar. 536 00:41:56,389 --> 00:41:57,598 Wait a minute. 537 00:41:57,598 --> 00:41:58,766 Uh, he's a friend of mine from Soda Springs. 538 00:41:58,766 --> 00:41:59,809 That's who he is, Hank. 539 00:41:59,809 --> 00:42:00,852 And you probably saw him 540 00:42:00,852 --> 00:42:03,730 having a drink with me at the saloon. 541 00:42:03,730 --> 00:42:07,942 In fact, uh, I was about to give him a shave. 542 00:42:07,942 --> 00:42:09,736 Got to come back later. 543 00:42:24,250 --> 00:42:26,085 I don't know why you done that, mister. 544 00:42:27,879 --> 00:42:30,256 But I believe I'll take you up on that shave. 545 00:42:32,550 --> 00:42:34,552 I don't often gussy up for a lady, 546 00:42:34,552 --> 00:42:40,057 but this one she's worth it. 547 00:42:49,817 --> 00:42:51,778 Miss Dorothy? 548 00:42:51,778 --> 00:42:53,446 Oh, Colleen. 549 00:42:53,446 --> 00:42:54,947 I didn't want to disturb you. 550 00:42:54,947 --> 00:42:56,908 Oh, it's all right. 551 00:42:56,908 --> 00:43:00,495 I brought you these. 552 00:43:00,495 --> 00:43:03,247 Just wanted you to know I was thinking about you. 553 00:43:03,247 --> 00:43:06,292 Thank you. 554 00:43:06,292 --> 00:43:07,752 They're so pretty. 555 00:43:11,881 --> 00:43:15,426 If there's anything you need, anything at all, 556 00:43:15,426 --> 00:43:17,804 you just let me know 557 00:43:17,804 --> 00:43:19,347 'cause there's nothing I wouldn't do for you, 558 00:43:19,347 --> 00:43:20,431 Miss Dorothy. 559 00:43:22,391 --> 00:43:25,311 Thank you. 560 00:43:25,311 --> 00:43:26,687 I appreciate that. 561 00:43:28,856 --> 00:43:29,982 I truly do. 562 00:43:32,360 --> 00:43:34,779 Time to change her bandages. 563 00:43:48,835 --> 00:43:51,337 You know, you can close your eyes or -- 564 00:43:51,337 --> 00:43:53,297 or you can just turn away. 565 00:43:53,297 --> 00:43:54,924 No, I want to look. 566 00:43:54,924 --> 00:43:56,342 I want to see myself. 567 00:43:56,342 --> 00:43:58,261 I need to see myself. 568 00:43:58,261 --> 00:43:59,720 Dorothy, I must advise against this. 569 00:43:59,720 --> 00:44:00,930 Michaela. 570 00:44:00,930 --> 00:44:02,932 Perhaps in a few weeks when you've healed more. 571 00:44:02,932 --> 00:44:08,354 Everyone's been reassuring me that I look just fine to them. 572 00:44:08,354 --> 00:44:09,730 When it comes right down to it, 573 00:44:09,730 --> 00:44:13,943 there's just one person who needs to believe it -- me. 574 00:44:15,319 --> 00:44:18,322 Now, I'd like a mirror and some privacy. 575 00:44:23,995 --> 00:44:27,790 As your doctor, I'll respect your wishes. 576 00:44:33,379 --> 00:44:35,882 But as your friend, I won't leave you alone. 577 00:46:21,153 --> 00:46:25,116 I know what you're thinking, and the answer is yes. 578 00:46:28,494 --> 00:46:31,080 I'll always love you no matter what happens. 579 00:46:34,083 --> 00:46:35,710 I'll always find you as beautiful 580 00:46:35,710 --> 00:46:38,796 as I did the first day I saw you.